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Ending The Break–Or How To Deal With GM Anxiety

Back in June I decided to take a break from running roleplaying games. I have been wearing the GM’s mantle for many, many years now, and I just needed to step back from that position for a while. Running games was just not fun for me anymore. It felt more like a job, a burden I had to take. Eventually it was even a source of anxiety. I was never the most self-confident person, but back then I thought that every game I started was doomed to fail anyway. Sometimes I even pondered to stop playing roleplaying games for good.

I’ve dealt with mental health issues for a long time and over the years I luckily learned how to deal with certain aspects of this predicament. When I noticed that I reacted with anxiety even when just thinking about running RPGs, I knew that I had to change something. So I decided to take a break.

It was pretty hard at first. But over time I was getting more relaxed and I enjoyed being able to just play for a change. I’ve a lot of fun playing in games like Shadowrun, Mutant: Year Zero, Traveller, and John Sinclair (which is a German game based on a German horror pulp novel series). Several members of my regular gaming groups tried their hand at being the GM for the first time, and felt some satisfaction when they immediately noticed that this job can be pretty hard at times.

But of course I was always thinking about what games I could run after the break. I wanted to find something I was comfortable with and which allowed me to ease me back in. I didn’t want to burn out on GMing again. Unfortunately this is more easily said than done. A lot of games I once felt quite comfortable with are now tied to some very unpleasant memories. Some of my attempts to get campaigns going in the first half of the year or even before that ended in disaster.

A couple of weeks back I took a hiatus from my GMing break when I ran an Index Card RPG one-shot game using the Warp Shell rules. The game was fun, the rules worked well, but I felt it wasn’t the right game for me. Perhaps I was also not in the right mindset for that game, or for GMing in general. After being on a break for so long, I now struggle to find the best way to end it.

I promised a few friends to run a roleplaying game this weekend, but I am still not sure what to run. I also feel that the longer I think about it the more anxious I get. But I don’t want to give in to anxiety again. It would be so easy to just play a board game or ask someone else to take over, but I actually don’t want to do that…

Long story short, now that I’ve been on a break for about half a year it’s becoming increasingly hard to get back into the GM’s chair, especially with my old friend anxiety looming somewhere under the surface. If you folks have any advice on how I could deal with it, it would be appreciated.

#RPGaDay2017 Day 18: The Answer is D&D

Today’s answer has been a constant all week, and it’s fitting it will be the Friday post. Just as the answer to the questions of #RPGaDay2017 about the game I prefer for open ended campaigns, and the one I like running as is, the answer for today is simple. Before I get to the answer, the question is:

August 18: Which RPG have you played the most in your life?

In case the banner picture at the top of the post didn’t give it away, the game I’ve played the most in my life is Dungeons & Dragons. I remember seeing this ad in a comic even before playing the game. Continue reading #RPGaDay2017 Day 18: The Answer is D&D

#RPGaDay2017 Day 12: Look at the pretty pictures

Welcome to the second Saturday post for #RPGaDay2017. If a picture speaks a thousand words, then the book I’m about to talk about has a about a million!

August 12: Which RPG has the most inspiring interior art?

This was one of my picks for Day 5, Mutants & Mastermind 1st edition. That book blew my mind, from the layout to the art. Every single piece inspired me and made me want to play a superhero game. Mind you, the excellent writing by Steve Kenson was also part of the allure.

Mutants & Masterminds has maintained a standard of excellence that is truly amazing. Through all three editions their books are just a delight to look upon. Check them out!

See, short, sweet and to the point. Now you can get back to your regular Saturday schedule. Remember that at the Desde la Fosa YouTube channel you can see our video reply for this very same question in Spanish. So, swing on by if you are idiomatically inclined!

What book has the most inspiring interior art for you? Let us know. See you Sunday!